I feel empty.
I feel like nobody could nevermore make me smile. I don't know why, it just... happens sometimes.
Of course I have reasons to be depressed, but empty ?
Seriously, it makes me mad. All I want is to be alone. I don't even have courage to draw my feelings, that's why I pollute your messages with this journal, I'm sorry.
Facebook is a fucking mess, I don't know why I continue to go on this shit.
For attention maybe.
Yes, I'm a fucking attention whore sometimes.
I think I have Peter Pan's syndrome. You know, when you're scared of growing up, of responsabilities, having a job, but I the same time, you want your own appart, being alone and independant, have peace and you just don't want to give a shit about anybody.
I don't know what to do with my life. I don't want to give up but it's freaking hard when everybody tells you that the job you want to have won't give you a lot of cash.
And gosh, I fucking need cash.
dsfkshgdkjgdjf sorry again. I needed to write my feels.